My California

Last night the season finale of “Californication” was on Showtime…and it was a good one. This season has felt kinda weird to me – Hank has been in a pseudo-relationship with professional rock musician muse Faith, but…it never felt authentic to me. Mind you, the actress who played her – Maggie Grace – is so unbelievably gorgeous that I probably would enter a pseudo-relationship with her tomorrow if I had the chance! Girlfriend is smokin’ hot – wowza! The thing with she and Hank just didn’t feel right, though, and I always felt like the writers put her there so that Hank would realize that he was just passing time until he made his way back to Karen (the long-suffering baby momma)…and hopefully he will. Some people argue that giving Hank and Karen a happy ending would be the beginning of the end of that show, but I really don’t think so – I am sure that them trying to make things work would have a lot of legs (largely due to the fact that Hank is the conductor of the Hot Mess Express)…but what do I know??!

 

At the end of the show (no spoilers here), a song played over the final scenes…and that friggin’ song about ripped my heart out, no joke. I was cuddled up in bed watching it, and before I knew it, my eyes were full of a strange moisture and I was blinking furiously, trying to preserve my dignity in front of Pickles the cat (don’t laugh, she can be such a judgmental bitch when she wants to be). I looked it up online (how the hell did we ever survive pre-Google??!), here it is – it’s called ‘My California’ by Beth Hart:

Calling California, is there anybody home
Hello California, won’t you please pick up the phone
I wanna say I love you, but I’m a million miles away
I am thinking of you, I miss you and L.A

For you and you alone
I’ll lay my monsters down
we’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone
I’ll find my way back home
I love you like the sun loves California
My California

I have made you suffer, left you waiting in the rain
While I was chasing demons in the deserts of my pain
You know me better than the poison in my veins
So my love, remember, when God forgets my name

For you and you alone
I’ll lay my monsters down
I’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone
I’ll find my way back home
I love you like the sun loves California
My California

I wanna feel the ocean breeze
Let the waves wash over me
I’ll leave my winters in the sand
Hey California, California

For you and you alone
I’ll lay my monsters down
we’ll watch the sun come up over California
For you and you alone
I’ll find my way back home
and I love you like the sun loves California

California
My California
My California
My California

 

Beautiful, right? The part where she says For you and you alone / I’ll lay my monsters down just kills me…we all have monsters, regardless of how much we try to ignore them – for some of us, those monsters are distant memories of the stupid decisions we made in our youth…and, for others, those monsters are hairy, fire-breathing creatures that lurk behind every doorway we cross…and they torment us every day. Sometimes, our monsters take the shape of dreams that we have long held on to, where people have been cast aside as casualties of us chasing those desires – and other times, the monsters that plague us are ourselves, our own self-sabotaging self-doubt that hinders any progress we could ever hope to make. However, every once in a while, someone will come around who is something really special (a magical unicorn, if you will)…and that special person and their love will be enough for you to put your monsters down, to close the door on them once and for all as you loudly tell them to bugger off, allowing you to give happiness a chance. Perhaps on the show, Karen is Hank’s magical unicorn – and maybe he is hers. If you are lucky enough to have a magical unicorn in your life, do yourself a favor and lay your monsters down for them – I’m certain that the payoff will be huge, highly rewarding…and exactly what you need. 🙂

xxx

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